My days of writing suddenly grew shorter and shorter as my work days grew longer and longer. The less time I had to "get things out" the more I felt frustrated. For me, sometimes talking to someone doesn't always help. Only because, there is only so much friends and family can do for you. Sometimes you have to work things out for yourself. Let's face it, if someone was always there to help you out or save you from something going on in the world, It makes it harder for you to do for yourself because someone was always there to "help". I choose to do for myself as much as I can before asking for help. But, sometimes waiting to do that can make things worse for you. Especially when you have bills to pay and your PRIDE gets in the way because you don't want to tell someone that you haven't been able to keep up with the bills. It's a very painful thing to do. Over the years I've done this and it's never turned out well. My misconstrued way of thinking that maybe if I asked someone for help especially financially then I'm looked at as a mooch, gold digger, or ...something worse. I've sat by and watched for years other ask for money, or things, or something. And those giving the help or who were asked to help talked behind their backs. I never wanted to be that person who got talked about. Fast forward many years and finding out that people talk about you no matter what you do.
Enough about that.
As i type away, i think what on this semi green.blue earth possessed me to watch KING KONG extended version. I love everything about this movie except for the extra huge nasty bugs crawling. I"m already have a issue with the smaller ones in the world today. (not quite a phobic, although my friend think i am ) OMG the leaches... in this i can't watch! They even make the grasshoppers menacing. Okay moving on ...i can't stop watching this scene even as i cringe painfully. LOL. Its' all silly. I promise i won't go to bed and have nightmares.
